At home in public houses
Poem 2 from my 'Home Soil' workshop with poet Olivia Douglass last week, was produced in response to an exercise which asked us to recall 3 phrases that reminded us of where we come from, and use them as the starting point for each stanza.
My mind took me to a dark place, but I went with it and read this to the group, feeling brave. So, as I share it with you now please note it comes with a trigger warning - alcohol/abuse. Please scroll on if you are affected by these issues.
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At home in public houses
"Let's pop in 'ere for one" Dad says, familiarly,
To the car-load, our family, behind him.
I watch the pub sign swaying to and fro
Like something from a Western, or a drunk,
Ominously threatening my sanity,
A repetition of too many weekends out on Exmoor
Gone before.
"Where be to?" Dad gestures to go inside,
So-called 'Adults', parents and grandparents,
'guardians' leading the way -
To bar-stools and bar snacks,
smoke-filled rooms of
pub-games: darts, and pool,
fruit-machines,
juke boxes
And underage drinking.
We sit in the back-bar and I babysit my younger sister and brother;
the table fills up with emptied glass coke bottles,
As we suck up pub culture through plastic straws.
Reluctantly accepting the inevitable,
I drink the proffered Martinis, while my brother crunches on pork scratchings,
Throws darts at the wall,
He's too small,
He doesn't mean to wreck the place.
"She's coming on" my Grandfather leers,
passing drunken comment on my budding adolescent figure
across a roomful of inappropriate eyes and ears.
"It's not funny!", I think, but say nothing,
Keep smiling,
Tell myself it will be over soon.
Until next week.
A Wensley
1.09.2024
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Reworked version: (She/He)
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At home in
public houses
"Let's pop
in 'ere for one" her Father says, familiarly
To the car-load
of 3 generations behind him on the back seat.
Her heart rate
increases.
She watches the
pub sign swaying to and fro
Like something
from a Western (or a drunk),
Ominously
threatening her sanity;
A repetition of
too many weekends out on Exmoor
Gone before.
"Where be
to?" her Father gestures to go
inside,
So-called
'Adults', parents, uncles and grandparents,
'guardians'
leading the way -
To bar-stools
and bar-snacks,
smoke-filled
rooms of
pub-games: darts,
and pool
fruit-machines,
juke boxes
And underage
drinking.
They assume her
position at their usual table in The Royal Oak,
babysitting her
younger Sister and Brother in the ‘back-bar’.
The table fills
up with emptied crisp packets and glass coke bottles;
assaulting their
senses, they sit there numb,
her Sister
twirling her hair
as she sucks up
pub culture through a stripey plastic straw.
Reluctantly accepting
the inevitable,
She sips the proffered Martinis, “good girl”,
while her Brother
crunches on pork scratchings,
Throws darts at
the wall,
He's too small,
He doesn't mean
to wreck the place.
Not that they
notice.
"She's
coming on" a local leers lasciviously,
passing slurred
comment on her budding adolescent figure
across a
roomful of inappropriate eyes and ears.
"It's not
funny!", she thinks, but says nothing,
“Cheer up, might never 'appen!”
Fake smile
through gritted teeth,
it'll be over
soon.
Until next
week.
A Wensley
26.09.2024
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